the journey

I love seeing people's journeys.  I love walking with them on their journeys.  I love the stories that come out of it all.  We can learn so much about who God is and what He does when we see the journeys and hear the stories.

I feel the need to share a little bit of my journey.  For weeks and weeks now, I've wanted to get back into writing blogs.  I've made a list of blog topics that have been on my mind.  I've even started a blog or two, but the words just never seem to come.  And I think it's because I just need to share my journey with you.  Because that's what this blog has always been.

If I had to sum up this season of my life in one word, it would be renewal.  I'm in a time where the Lord is teaching me so many new things.  I've been given lots of different opportunities, I'm taking on new responsibilities, and as they pile on, I am having to trust the Lord more and more.

It's kind of one of those times when I feel like the world is going on around me, business as usual, and I'm just kind of on the outside, looking at it all, figuring out where I fit in, and how God wants to use me. Sometimes I wish I really could just step back, unplug, and observe, but as a mother of two very active children, that's just not an option.  I've gotta keep going, gotta keep moving, no matter what.  So I'm living in this dichotomy of wanting to sit, think, and reflect, but having to just do without thinking.  And I'm learning that sometimes that's the way God wants it.  Sometimes he wants us simply to obey.

I'm learning that things will look different through this season.  My time with the Lord will look different.  My relationship with my husband will look different.  My community with friends and family will look different.  I can't do it all.  I can't please everyone.  There are some things that I just have to let go.  And that's ok.

Although this may sound cheesy, and it's been said SO MANY TIMES before, I am learning that there really is no time like the present.  With Facebook and Pinterest so prevalent, there were so many things that I wanted to do.  It seemed I was always looking outside, looking to other people for ideas about how to be the best wife and mom.  It seemed I always needed to find more things to teach my kids, more fun crafts to do, more, more, more.  And then I realized the beauty of simplicity.  The art of simplicity.  The joy of simplicity.  Instead of looking outward and dreaming, I've started looking into the eyes of those right in front of me and doing.

So that's where I am.  I don't have any great biblical illustrations or wise words of encouragement, but I have my journey.  Walk with me.