When Leeland gets hungry, he is so single minded. He starts sucking on his hands, his arms, his burp rag, my hands, ANYTHING he can get in his mouth, whatever is right in front of him. In fact, he is soooo set on sucking on all these things right in front of his face that it's hard for me to even get the bottle into his mouth. All along, I have the one thing that will satisfy him, but he can't even get it because he is too preoccupied with empty things that will never nourish him. I find myself saying, "Leeland! I have your bottle right here! I promise this is what you need!" Then I have to physically move his hands out of his face and hold them down so I can get the bottle in his mouth.
One night, at about 2 a.m., I had the thought, "This is how I treat God." I am always seeking and searching, my soul is hungry, but so many times I turn to the things that will not satisfy. I only look at what is right in front of me, whatever is easiest. And all along, God is standing there saying, "Meagan! I have what you need right here! LET me give it to you!"
I'm not only robbing God. I am robbing myself.
Leeland, thank you for this little lesson.
God, thank you for using my precious little son to bring my back to You.